He loves me

I've felt it for a while now. Those words almost escape my lips every time I have to say goodbye. When he carries me to my bed when I fall asleep in his arms, all I can think to say is "I love you" but I always held back because I don't want to scare him away. But tonight he said to me "I'm just going to throw something out there........I think I'm falling in love with you" I was so taken aback. I didn't know what to say even though my feelings for him are so clear. Finally I choked out an "I love you too" and I am so happy. He said that I make sense. Being with me makes sense and he has thought a lot about going to Beijing this summer, wondering if he needs to make a decision about me before he leaves. I told him my mind was going two ways, one: tell him he never has to worry because no other person or amount of time could change my feelings for him, or two: let him be scared so I can keep him. He laughed and said thank you for not keeping him scare. "So you won't forget about me if we're not engaged when I leave?" Of course not silly boy. He means so much to me. My family met him and love him to death. It's intimidating because if I had to move on from him, I don't know that I could find another who would be up to par. Life with him would be so perfect. I want it so badly. I've never wanted anything as badly as I want him. But it's so scary. I'm not scared of being with him because I know I could. I'm scared of making such a big step. I'm so young. We both are. What if I'm missing out on something big? What if it would change my life? And do I even care? I know that if he asked me to be his wife tomorrow, I would say yes without hesitation and just put all those fears aside. So I guess that surety  is my answer. I must want to be with him because being without him would be unbearable. He told me that he was going to ask me a personal question and that he ever want or need to know specifics, but he wanted to know when I would have a temple reccomend. That meant so much to me. It never occured to me that a good man would put my past in my past and keep it there without a second thought. If God can forgive and remember no more, then my future husband should too. I was so relieved. It hurts me so much...knowing that I'm holding us back. I'm going to meet with the bishop as soon as possible. The idea of one day soon telling Adam I want to go to the temple with him on a Saturday morning is...blissful. I love him. And he loves me. I am so happy.